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It is Well (Brave Every Day)

lighthouse_waveYour experience may be different. But my depression is typically more numbness than sadness. Little feeling. No tears.

So when something pierces through enough to cause a welling up, I know to pay attention. (More regular tears in recent days tell me I’m on a recovering path.)

The old hymn It is Well with my Soul is one of those things that can always cut me to the quick. And Matt Redman’s newly released acoustic version came to my ears at the right time. (Lyrics & Link below)

But it puzzled me. How could I sing those words with so much conviction while knowing I was so lost inside myself? How did I know that I know that I know that indeed It is Well even while knowing in equal measure that so many things were not OK?

The wars we wage inside ourselves are multi-faceted.

My body craves sugar on a physical level. My mind wants it as a comfort. My spirit is used to letting a liar have its way with words about my worth. It’s a battle on many fronts.

But my soul is secure.

For God alone my soul waits in silence;
From Him comes my salvation.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
My defense and my strong tower; I will not be shaken or disheartened. (Ps 62: 1-2, Amplified)

No matter the state of my mind, my heart, my spirit, or my body, there is a place that is secure.

My soul rejoices.

And It Is Well.

 

It is Well with My Soul, by Matt Redman

Our scars are a sign
Of grace in our lives
Oh Father how You brought us through

When deep were the wounds
And dark was the night
The promise of Your love You proved

Now every battle still to come
Let this be our song

It is well with my soul
It is well
It is well with my soul

Weeping may come
Remain for a night
But joy will paint the morning sky

You’re there in the fast
You’re there in the feast
Your faithfulness will always shine

Now every blessing still to come
Let this be our song

It is well with my soul
It is well
It is well with my soul

You lead us through battles
You lead us to blessing
And You make us fruitful
In the land of our suffering God
It is well
It is well with my soul
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brave-squareIn response to the 31 Day blogging challenge, I will be publishing EVERY DAY in October — reporting on ways I reach out to bravery in my everyday life. (See all posts to date HERE.) To be alerted to new posts, please follow me on Facebook or Twitter using the links on the right side of this page. Or Subscribe to get posts sent to your Email.

PLEASE use the comment section to share your own thoughts, questions, or experiences of everyday bravery. It’s a road better traveled with friends.

6 Responses to “It is Well (Brave Every Day)”

  1. Depression takes on so many forms and affects each of us in different ways. and what I have learned is the one who is depressed often is the last one to notice. It was a friend of mine who kept thinking i was becoming depressed that sent me to a counselor 10 months after my brother died.

    As to this eating journey, the more I learn about what is down inside that hasn’t seen the light of day, the more I am learning from this. blessings on your journey, Beth.
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  2. Sharon says:

    Yes, Beth, I understand the numbing experience of depression, the low-grade fever kind. And it is pervasive. I love what you’ve shared here – it is helpful to me on many levels. And yes, at the end of the day, it is good to be reminded that all is indeed well with my soul…

    GOD BLESS!

    • Beth says:

      Low-grade fever is such a great way to categorize it, Sharon. Not enough to completely knock you out but enough to create a fog and distraction. Thank you for your words.

  3. Jamie says:

    Your journey is inspiring me, Beth!!! I have issues with depression as well, fighting so many things at once and the ugliest is self sabotage in my wellness journey and me accepting that I’ll just be this way forever. We can do this…and I would love to go with you to that meeting, if you’d be ok with me going?

    Let me just say…I cried when I read this part of the song…
    Our scars are a sign
    Of grace in our lives
    Oh Father how You brought us through

    THANK YOU for the reminder!! That song always struck a nerve in me growing up, and now I get it. In all my pain he’s right there comforting me, teaching me and guiding me to his purpose for my life!!

    Keep writing…you are really great at it!!!
    Xoxo
    Jamie

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